It’s the untethering of my parents’ house that’s on my plate today. The flying of a kite on a windy Toronto Hallowe’en day and the suspension of worry for a shiny moment.
And sail surface isn’t even a problemette when it comes to my parents’ home -- the thing is a three-storey bat whose narrow wings contain the trolleycar-shaped bedrooms and storages. Mum and Dad built it themselves while I tottered in the driveway, sucking a filthy shred of blanket, and as I contemplate it today with hands on hips from the front yard, I am there on that day:
Dad is nailgunning strips of plywood into a frame, Mum stands where I am now, hands on her hips (and I take my hands from my hips hastily, shove them deep in pockets). She squints and shouts directions. Then they both grab rolls of scrim and stapleguns and stretch it loosely across the frames, and fast-bond pipes and prefab fixtures into place. Mum harnesses up the big tanks of foam and aims the blower at the scrim, giving it five fat coats, then she drops the blower and she and Dad grab spatulas and tease zillions of curlicues and baroque stuccoes from the surface, painting it with catsup, chutney, good whiskey and bad wine, a massive canvas covered by centimetres until they declare it ready and Mum switches tanks, loads up with fix-bath and mists it with the salty spray. Ten minutes later, and the house is hard and they get to work unloading the U-Haul in the drive.
And now I’m twenty-two again, and I will untether that house and fly it in the stiff breeze that ruffles my hair affectionately.
Firstly and most foremost, I need to wait for the man. I hate to wait. But today it’s waiting and harsh and dull, dull, dull.
So I wait for the man, Stude the Dude and the gentle clip-clop of Tilly’s hooves on the traction-nubbed foam of my Chestnut Ave.
My nose is pressed against the window in the bat’s crotch, fingers dug into the hump of fatty foam that runs around its perimeter, fog patches covering the rime of ground-in filth that I’ve allowed to accumulate on my parents’ spotless windows.
Where the frick is Stude?
The man has cometh. Clop-clip, clip-clop, Stude the Dude, as long as a dangling booger, and his clapped-out nag Tilly, and the big foam cart with its stacks of crates and barrels and boxes, ready to do the deal.
“Maxes!” he says, and I know I’m getting taken today -- he looks genuinely glad to see me.
“Stude, nice day, how’s it?” I say, as cas and cool as I can, which isn’t, very.
“Fine day! Straight up fine day to be alive and awaiting judgment!” He power-chugs from the perpetual coffee thermos at his side.
“Fine day,” I echo.
“Fine, fine day.” Like he’s not in any hurry to get down to the deal, and I know it’s a contest, and the first one to wheel gets taken.
I snort and go “Yuh-huh.” It’s almost cheating, since I should’ve had something else nice to say, but Stude gives me a conversational Get-Out-Of-Jail-Free.
“Good night to tricky treat.”
I concede defeat. “I need some stuff, Stude.”
Give it to him, he doesn’t gloat. Just hauls again from Mr Coffee and pooches his lips and nods.
“Need, uh, spool of monofilament, three klicks, safety insulated. Four litres of fix bath. Litre, litre and a half of solvent.”
“Yeah, okay. Got a permit for the solvent?”
“If I had a permit, Stude, I’d go and buy it at the fricken store. Don’t pull my dick.”
“Just askin’. Whyfor the solvent? Anything illegal?”
“Just a project, Stude. Nothing to worry.”
“What kinda project?”
“Art project. Fun-fricken-tastic. You’ll love it.”
“‘Cause you know, they tag the shit with buckyballs now, one molecule in a million with a serial number and a checksum. You do something stupid, I get chopped.”
I hadn’t known. Didn’t matter, my parents’ house was legally mine, while they were up confabbing with their alien buds on the mothaship. “No worries.”
“That’ll be, uh, sixty-eight cents.”
“Take it in trade?”
“Fricken Maxes! Tradesies? You’re wastin’ my time, lookin’ for bootleg solvent, looking for trade and no cash? Get fucked, Maxes.”
He starts to haw-up Tilly and I go, “Wait-wait-wait, I got some good stuff.
Everything must go, moving sale, you know?”
He looks really pissed and I know it hard now, I’m gonna get taken. I hand him up my bag, and he does a fast-paw through the junk. “What’s this?” he asks.
“Old video game. Atari. Shoot up the space aliens. Really, really antisocial.
Needs a display, but I don’t got it anymore.” I’d sold it the month before on a bored day, and used the eight cents to buy good seats behind home plate at the Skydome and thus killed an entire afternoon before Judgment Day.
There are some of the artyfarty “freestyle” kitchen utensils Mum used to sell for real cash until Dad founded his Process for Lasting Happiness and she found herself able to pursue “real art.” There are paper books and pictures and assorted other crap.
Stude clucks and shakes his head. “If I just gave you the monofil and the fix-bath for this shit, it’d be a favour. Look, I can get real money for solvent. I pay real money for solvent. This just don’t cut it.”
“I’ll get more, just hang a sec.”
He haws-up Tilly but reigns her in slow, and I dash back to my place and fill a duffel with anything I lay hands to, and run out, dragging it behind me, catching the cart before it turns the corner. “Here, here, take this too.”
Stude dumps it out in front of him and kicks at the pile. “This is just crap, Maxes. There’s lots of it, sure, but it’s still crap.”
“I need it, Stude, I really need some solvent. You already got all my good stuff.”
He shakes his head, sad, and says, “Go ask Tilly.”
“Tilly. Ask her.”
Stude likes to humiliate you a little before he does you a favour. The word is capricious, he told me once.
So I go to his smelly old horse and whisper in her hairy ear and hold my breath as I put my ear next to the rotten jumbo-chiclets she uses for teeth. “She says you should do it,” I say. “And she says you’re an asshole for making me ask her.
She says horses can’t talk.”
“Yeah, okay,” and he tosses me the goods.
With stage one blessedly behind me, I’m ready for stage two. I take the nozzle of the solvent aerosol and run a drizzle along the fatty roll of the windowsills and then pop them out as the fix bath runs away and the windows fly free and shatter on the street below.
Then it’s time to lighten the ballast. With kicks and grunts and a mantra of
“Out, out, out,” I toss everything in the house out, savouring each crash, taking care to leave a clear path between the house and the street.
On the third floor, I find Dad’s cardigan, the one Mum gave him one anniversary, and put it on. She carved it herself from foam and fixed it with some flexible, dirt-shedding bath, so by the time I’m done with the third floor, my arms and chest are black with dust, and the sweater is still glowing with eerie cleanliness.
I know Dad wouldn’t want me to wear his sweater now. They say that on the mothaship, the bugouts have ways to watch each and every one of us, and maybe Mum and Dad are there, watching me, and so I wipe my nose on the sleeve.
When the ballast is done, phase three begins. I go to work outside of the house, spritzing a line of solvent at the point where the foam meets the ground, until it’s all disconnected.
And then I got to kick myself for an asshole. A strand of armoured fibre-optic, a steel water pipe, and the ceramic gas line hold it all down, totally impervious to solvent.
Somewhere, in a toolbox that I ditched out the second floor window, is a big old steel meat-cleaver, and now I hunt for it, prying apart the piles of crap with a broomstick, feeling every inch the post-apocalyptic scrounger.
I finally locate it, hanging out of arm’s reach from my neighbour Linus’s rose trellis. I shake the trellis until it falls, missing my foot, which I jerk away and swear at.
The fibre cleaves with a single stroke. The gas line takes twenty or more, each stroke clanging off the ceramic and sending the blade back alarmingly at my face. Finally it gives, and the sides splinter and a great jet of gas whooshes out, then stops.
I could kick myself for an asshole. Praise the bugouts for civil engineers who made self-sealing pipes. I eye the water line warily and flip open my comm, dial into the city, and touch-tone my way through a near-sexy woman reading menus until I find out that the water, too, self-seals.
Whang, whang, whang, and I’m soaked and blinded by the water that bursts free, and I could kick myself for an asshole!
The house, now truly untethered, catches a gust of wind and lifts itself a few metres off the ground, body-checking me on my ass. I do a basketball jump and catch the solvent-melted corner, drag it down to earth, long-arm for the fix bath and slop it where the corner meets the driveway, bonding it there until phase four is ready.
I bond one end of monofilament to the front right corner of the house, then let it unwind, covered in eraser-pink safety goop, until I’m standing in my deserted Chestnut Ave. I spray a dent in the middle of the road with my solvent, plunk the reel into it, bond it, then rush back to the house and unbond that last one corner.
I hit the suck button on the reel and the house slowly drags its way to the street, leaving a gap like a broken tooth in the carefully groomed smile of my Chestnut Ave.
The wind fluffs at the house, making it settle/unsettle like a nervous hen and so I give it line by teasing the spit button on the reel until it’s a hundred metres away. Then I reel it in and out, timing it with the gusts until, in a sudden magnificent second, it catches and sails up-and-up-and-up and I’m a fricken genius.
It’s nearly four and my beautiful kite is a dancing bird in the sky before the good little kiddies of my Chestnut Ave start to trickle home from their days of denial, playing at normalcy in the face of Judgment.
Linus is the first one home, and he nearly decapitates himself on the taut line as he cruises past on his bicycle. He slews to a stop and stares unbelieving at me, at the airborne house, at the gap where he had a neighbour.
“Maxes Fuentes Shumacher! What is this?”
“Flying a kite, Linus. Just flyin’ a kite. Nice day for it, yeah?”
“This,” he says, then sputters. Linus is a big devotee of Dad’s Process for Lasting Happiness, and I can actually watch him try to come up with some scripture to cover the situation while he gulps back mouthsful of bile. “This is an Irresponsible Wrong, Maxes. You are being a Feckless Filthy. This is an abuse of property, a Lashing Out at a Figure in Absentia. You are endangering others, endangering aircraft and people and property below that. I insist that you Right-Make this now, this instant.”
“Yeah, uh-huh, yeah.” And I squint up at my kite, the sun coming down behind it now, and it’s just a dot in the big orange fire. The wind’s more biting than friendly. I pull the foam sweater a little closer, and do up one of the buttons in the middle.
“Maxes!” Linus shouts, his happiness dissipating. “You have thirty seconds to get that down here, or I will Right-Make it myself.”
I didn’t live with my dad for twenty years without picking up some Process-speak. “You seem to be Ego-Squeezing here, Lin. This Blame-Saying is a Barrier to Joy, bud, and the mark of a Weekend Happyman. Why don’t you go watch some TV or something?”
He ignores me and makes a big show of flipping open his comm and starting a timer running on it.
Man, my kite is a work of art. Megafun.
“Time’s up, Feckless Filthy,” Linus says, and snakes out and punches the suck button on my monofilament reel. It whizzes and line starts disappearing into its guts.
“You can’t bring down a kite that way, frickface. It’ll crash.” Which it does, losing all its airworthiness in one hot second and plummeting like a house.
It tears up some trees down Chestnut, and I hear a Rice Crispies bowl of snap-crackle-pops from further away. I use a shear to clip the line and it zaps away, like a hyperactive snake.
“Moron,” I say to Linus. The good kiddies of Chestnut Ave are now trickling home in twos and threes and looking at the gap in the smile with looks of such bovine stupidity that I stalk away in disgust, leaving the reel bonded to the middle of the road forever.
I build a little fort out of a couch and some cushions, slop fix bath over the joints so they’re permanent, and hide in it, shivering.
Tricky-treaters didn’t come knocking on my pillow-fort last night. That’s fine by me. I slept well.
I rise with the sun and the dew and the aches of a cold night on a mattress of clothes and towels.
I flip open my comm, and there’s a half-doz clippings my agent’s found in the night. Five are about the bugouts; I ignore those. One is about the kite.
It crashed around Highway 7 and the 400 in Vaughan, bouncing and skidding.
Traffic was light, and though there were a few fender-benders, nothing serious went down. The city dispatched a couple-three guys to go out with solvent and melt the thing, but by the time they arrived, an errant breeze had lofted it again, and it flew another seventy kay, until it crossed the antidebris field at Jean Paul Aristide International in Barrie.
I’m hungry. I’m cold. My teeth are beshitted with scum. Linus comes tripping Noel Coward out of his front door and I feel like kicking his ass. He sees me staring at him.
“Did you have a good night, Maxes?”
“Spiff, strictly nift. Eat shit and die.”
He tsks and shakes his head and gets on his bicycle. He works down at Yonge and Bloor, in the big Process HQ. His dad was my dad’s lieutenant, and since they both went to the confab on the mothaship (along with all the other grownups on my Chestnut Ave), he’s sort of in charge. Shit-eating prick. He lisps a little when he talks, and he’s soft and pudgy, not like Dad, who could orate like a Roman tyrant and had a washboard for a gut.
I hope he gets hit by a semi.
I pass the morning with my comm, till I come to the pict of Mum and Dad and their Process buds on the jetway to the shuttle at Aristide, ascending to the heavens as humanity’s reps. They’re both naked and arm-in-arm and as chaste as John and Yoko, and my eyes fill up with tears. I crawl back into my fort and sleep and dream about buzzing Chestnut Ave in a shuttle with a payload of solvent, melting down all the houses into trickles that disappear into the sewers.
I wake for the second time that day to the sound of a gas engine, a rarity on Chestnut Ave and the surrounding North Toronto environs. It’s a truck, from the city, the kind they used to use to take away the trash before the pneuma was finished -- Dad pointed out how it was a Point of Excellence, the plans for the subterranean pneuma, and his acolytes quietly saw to it. Three men in coveralls and reflective vests ride on the back. It pulls up into my drive, and my comm chimes.
It’s a text-only message, signed and key-crypted from Linus, on Process letterhead. The first thing it does is flash a big message about how by reading it, I have logged my understanding of its contents and it is now officially served to me, as per blah blah blah. Legal doc.
I scroll down, just skimming. “-- non compis mentis -- anti-social destruction of property -- reckless endangerment of innocent life -- violation of terms -- sad duty of the Trustees --” and by the time I’m finished the message, I’m disinherited. Cut off from the Process trust fund. Property stripped. Subpoenaed to a competency hearing.
The driver of the truck has been waiting for me to finish the note. He makes eye contact with me, I make eye contact with him. The other two hop out and start throwing my piles of ballast into the back of the truck.
I take my bicycle from the shed out back, kick my way through the piles of crap, and ride off into the sunset.
For Christmas I hang some tinsel from my handlebars and put a silver star on the big hex-nut that holds the headset to the front forks.
Tony the Tiger thinks that’s pretty funny. He stopped into my sickroom this morning as I lay flat on my back on my grimy, sweaty futon, one arm outflung, hand resting on the twisted wreckage of my front wheel. He stood in the doorway, grinning from striped shirt to flaming red moustache, and barked “Hah!” at me.
Which is his prerogative, since this is his place I’m staying at, here in a decaying Rosedale mansion gone to spectacular Addams Family ruin, this is where he took me in when I returned on my bike from the ghosttown of Niagara Falls, where I’d built a nest of crap from the wax-museums and snow-globe stores until the kitsch of it all squeezed my head too hard and I rode home, to a Toronto utterly unlike the one I’d left behind. I’d been so stunned by it all that I totally missed the crater at Queen and Brock, barreling along at forty kay, and I’d gone down like a preacher’s daughter, smashing my poor knee and my poor bike to equally dismal fragments.
“Hah!” I bark back at Tony the Tiger. “Merry happy, dude.”
Which it is, more or less, for us ragtags who live on Tony the Tiger’s paternal instincts and jumbo survivalist-sized boxes of Corn Flakes.
And now it’s the crack of noon, and my navel is thoroughly contemplated, and my adoring public awaits, so it’s time to struggle down bravely and feed my face.
I’ve got a robe, it used to be white, and plush, with a hood. The hood’s still there, but the robe itself is the sweat-mat grey of everything in Tony the Tiger’s dominion. I pull it on and grope for my cane. I look down at the bruisey soccerball where my knee used to be and gingerly snap on the brace that Tony fabbed up for me out of foam and velcro. Then it’s time to stand up.
“Fricken-mother-shit-jesus-fuck!” I shout and drown out my knee’s howls of protest.
“Y’okay?” floats Tony’s voice up the stairs.
“Peachy keen!” I holler back and start my twenty-two-year-old old-fogey shuffle down the stairs: step, drag.
On the ground-floor landing, someone’s used aerosol glitter to silver the sandbags that we use to soak up bullets randomly fired into our door. It’s a wonderful life.
I check myself out in the mirror. I’m skinny and haunted and stubbly and gamey.
There’s a pair of size-nine Kodiaks in a puddle of melting slush and someone’s dainty wet sock-prints headed for the kitchen. Daisy Duke’s home for the holidays. Off to the kitchen for me.
And there she is, a vision of brave perseverance in the face of uncooperative climate. She’s five-six average; not-thin, not-fat average; eyes an average hazel; tits, two; arms, two; legs, two; and skin the colour of Toronto’s winter, sun-deprived-white with a polluted grey tinge. My angel of mercy.
She leaps out of her chair and is under my arm supporting me before I know it.
“Maxes, hi,” she says, drawing out the “hi” like an innuendo.
“Daisy Duke, as I live and breathe,” I say, and she’s got the same mix of sweat and fun-smell coming off her hair as when she sat with me while I shouted and raved about my knee for a week after coming to Tony the Tiger’s.
She puts me down in her chair as gently as an air-traffic controller. She gives my knee a look of professional displeasure, as though it were swollen and ugly because it wanted to piss her off. “Lookin’ down and out there, Maxes. Been to a doctor yet?”
Tony the Tiger, sitting on the stove, head ducked under the exhaust hood, stuffs his face with a caramel corn and snorts. “The boy won’t go. I tell him to go, but he won’t go. What to do?”
I feel like I should be pissed at him for nagging me, but I can’t work it up.
Dad’s gone, taken away with all the other Process-heads on the mothaship, which vanished as quickly as it had appeared. The riots started immediately. Process HQ at Yonge and Bloor was magnificently torched, followed by the worldwide franchises. Presumably, we’d been Judged, and found wanting. Only a matter of time, now.
So I can’t get pissed at Tony for playing fatherly. I kind of even like it.
And besides, now that hospitals are turf, I’m as likely to get kakked as cured, especially when they find out that dear ole Dad was the bull-goose Process-head.
“That right? Won’t go take your medicine, Maxes?” She can do this eye-twinkle thing, turn it off and on at will, and when she does, it’s like there’s nothing average about her at all.
“I’m too pretty to make it in there.”
Daisy turns to Tony and they do this leaders-of-the-commune meaningful-glance thing that makes me apeshit. “Maybe we could get a doc to come here?” Daisy says, at last.
“And perform surgery in the kitchen?” I say back. All the while, my knee is throbbing and poking out from under my robe.
Daisy and Tony hang head and I feel bad. These two, if they can’t help, they feel useless. “So, how you been?” I ask Daisy, who has been AWOL for three weeks, looking for her folks in Kitchen-Waterloo, filled up with the holiday spirit.
“Baby, it’s cold outside. Took highway 2 most of the way -- the 407 was drive-by city. The heater on the Beetle quit about ten minutes out of town, so I was driving with a toque and mittens and all my sweaters. But it was nice to see the folks, you know? Not fun, but nice.”
Nice. I hope they stuck a pole up Dad’s ass and put him on top of the Xmas tree.
“It’s good to be home. Not enough fun in Kitchener. I am positively fun-hungry.”
She doesn’t look it, she looks wiped up and wrung out, but hell, I’m pretty fun hungry, too.
“So what’s on the Yuletide agenda, Tony?” I ask.
“Thought we’d burn down the neighbours’, have a cheery fire.” Which is fine by me -- the neighbours split two weeks before. Morons from Scarborough, thought that down in Florida people would be warm and friendly. Hey, if they can’t be bothered to watch the tacticals fighting in the tunnels under Disney World, it’s none of my shit.
“Sounds like a plan,” I say.
We wait until after three, when everyone in the happy household has struggled home or out of bed. We’re almost twenty when assembled, ranging from little Tiny Tim to bulldog Pawn-Shop Maggie, all of us unrecalcitrants snagged in the tangle of Tony’s hypertrophied organisational skills.
The kitchen at Tony’s is big enough to prepare dinner for forty guests. We barely fit as we struggle into our parkas and boots. I end up in a pair of insulated overalls with one leg slit to make room for my knee/soccerball. If this was Dad and Mum, it’d be like we were gathered for a meeting, waiting for the Chairman to give us the word. But that’s not Tony’s style; he waits until we’re approaching ready, then starts moving toward the door, getting out the harness. Daisy Duke shoulders a kegger of foam and another full of kerosene, and Grandville gets the fix-bath. Tiny Tim gets the sack of marshmallows and we trickle into the yard.
It was a week and a half after Hallowe’en when the vast cool intelligences from beyond the stars zapped away. The whole year since they’d arrived, the world had held its breath and tippytoed around on best behave. When they split, it exhaled. The gust of that exhalation carried the stink of profound pissed-offedness with the Processors who’d acted the proper Nazi hall-monitors until the bugouts went away. I’d thrown a molotov into the Process centre at the Falls myself, and shouted into the fire until I couldn’t hear myself.
So now I’m a refugee on Xmas Eve, waiting for fearless leader to do something primordial and cathartic. Which he does, even if he starts off by taking the decidedly non-primordial step of foaming the side of our squat that faces the neighbours’, then fixing it, Daisy Duke whanging away on the harness’s seal with a rock to clear the ice. Once our place is fireproofed, Daisy Duke switches to kero, and we cheer and clap as it laps over the neighbours’, a two-storey coach-house. The kero leaves shiny patches on the rime of frost that covers the place. My knee throbs, so I sit/kneel against the telephone pole out front.
The kids are getting overexcited, pitching rocks at the glass to make holes for the jet of kero. Tony shuts down the stream, and I think for a minute that he’s pissed, he’s gonna take a piece out of someone, but instead he’s calm and collected, asks people to sort out getting hoses, buckets and chairs from the kitchen. Safety first, and I have to smile.
The group hops to it, extruding volunteers through a nonobvious Brownian motion, and before long all of Tony’s gear is spread out on the lawn. Tony then crouches down and carves a shallow bowl out of the snow. He tips the foam-keg in, then uses his gloves to sculpt out a depression. He slops fix-bath on top, then fills his foam-and-snow bowl with the last of the kero.
“You all ready?” he says, like he thinks he’s a showman.
Most of us are cold and wish he’d just get it going, but Tony’s the kind of guy you want to give a ragged cheer to.
He digs the snow out from around the bowl and holds it like a discus. “Maestro, if you would?” he says to Daisy Duke, who uses long fireplace match to touch it off. The thing burns like a brazier, and Tony the Tiger frisbees it square into the middle of the porch. There’s a tiny chuff and then all the kero seems to catch at once and the whole place is cheerful orange and warm as the summer.
We pass around the marshmallows and Tony’s a fricken genius.
The flames lick and spit, and the house kneels in slow, majestic stages. The back half collapses first, a cheapie addition that’s fifty years younger than the rest of the place. The front porch follows in the aftershock, and it sends a constellation of embers skittering towards the marshmallow-roasters, who beat at each other’s coats until they’re all extinguished.
As the resident crip, I’ve weaseled my way into one of the kitchen chairs, and I’ve got it angled to face the heat. I sit close enough that my face feels like it’s burning, and I turn it to the side and feel the delicious cool breeze.
The flames are on the roof, now, and I’m inside my own world, watching them.
They dance spacewards, and I feel a delicious thrill as I realise that the bugouts are not there, that the bugouts are not watching, that they took my parents and my problems and vanished.
I’m broken from the reverie by Daisy Duke, who’s got a skimask on, the mouth rimmed in gummy marshmallow. She’s got two more marshmallows in one three-fingered cyclist’s glove.
“Mmm. Marshmallowey,” I say. It’s got that hard carboniferous skin and the gooey inside that’s hot enough to scald my tongue. “I like it.”
“Almost New Year’s,” she says.
“Gonna make any resolutions?” she asks.
“Sure,” she says, and I honestly can’t imagine what this perfectly balanced person could possibly have to resolve. “You first,” she says.
“Gonna get my knee fixed up.”
“Yuh-huh. The rest, I’ll play by ear. Maybe I’ll find some Process-heads to hit.
“Get the plumbing upstairs working again. Foam the whole place. Cook one meal a week. Start teaching self-defense. Make sure your knee gets fixed up.” And suddenly, she seems like she’s real old, even though she’s only twenty-five, only three years older than me.
“Oh, yeah. That’s real good.”
“Got any other plans for the next year, Maxes?”
“No, nothing special.” I feel a twinge of freeloader’s anxiety. “Maybe try and get some money, help out around here. I don’t know.”
“You don’t have to worry about that. Tony may run this place, but I’m the one who found it, and I say you can stay. I just don’t want to see you,” she swallows, “you know, waste your life.”
“No sweatski.” I’m not even thinking as I slip into this line. “I’ll be just fine. Something’ll come up, I’ll figure out what I want to do. Don’t worry about me.”